Sunday, May 15, 2005

Rebirth

Rebirth

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I feared that I wouldn’t feel you… that there was no resurrection of the death you had suffered and so as we approached the club we both listened for the music that once determined our moves…
Arriving a little earlier than usual, the dance floor was still unoccupied and so my friends and I went to sit where we could chat and laugh.
Perhaps it was the strawberry cocktail; it was definitely the good company I had, that allowed to feel completely at ease…
No stress, no disappointment, no pressure… just a night out with the girls to celebrate one of my best friend’s twenty sixth birthday.
Taking out our invisible microphones, we sang to the music and measured the cute barman’s rear end while distracting the guy in front of us who was oblivious to the fuming, jealous girlfriend sitting next to him.
I believe it was Tina Turner’s “What’s love got to do with it” that inspired us to open the dance floor. Most eyes where on me and my friends as we ignored what people may think and decided to let loose in the space that allowed us full reign of the music.
People began joining us soon after and we even got a show from the owner that decided to show us his incredible Latin dancing talents. I smiled as it made me recall a similar show mostly seen at Company Christmas parties in Lisbon.
Our space become more and more limited as people crowded the dance floor. Catching a glimpse of more friends, our big group decided to take over the space on the first floor where we could dance as we wished without being pushed or shoved.

And that’s when I felt you! Right there in the middle of my favourite people, my friends… the people that are responsible for most of the memorable moments in my life. As my body swayed from side to side, I felt you take over my spirit in full regeneration…

Rhythm!

I feel you more intensely than ever! Moving my body with the music I feel your power defining every movement … every sway, every turn… taking control of my spirit’s expression! I felt you inside me and welcomed you back with my every step.

Not caring whose watching or what they’re thinking, I embrace the rhythm of my soul by dancing. Dancing like no one’s looking… dancing like I’m being filmed… dancing to express my spirit… dancing for that someone special… dancing for someone who’s not there… dancing for no one but myself… simply letting go in the form of dancing.

Life has a way of silencing our forms of expression with hurt and disappointment. At some or other point in your life, the artist, the painter, the singer and the dancer may die within you even if you don’t will it so… But it is only a momentary death, a time, a phase in which you can’t move your feet or express any joy from a broken soul.
But then… just like Spring comes after a cold Winter, so too does your spirit revive and you find that you never truly lost what you thought was dead…
Rhythm was merely waiting for me to rediscover it again.

7 comments:

Wanderer said...

Any form of expression... and for sure U were not alone! and never more will! Life is about connection, communication, dancing the same music... smiling to the same notes, dancing with the heart!
Feel it? Me too!

Chronis said...

Remember: Today it's a blank page that is offered to you so that you can write a new chapter of your history! To start from zero is only a question of wanting! If you want, Life also wants it. She is therefore it always waves with this new called possibility present!
Got it??
Good!!!
Let's dance:)

Anonymous said...

amar é mesmo sentir o objecto amado em todas as circunstancias. eu tambem já senti o que sentiste. identifico-me muito com o que escreves. acho que somos almas gemeas no pensamento. adorava saber expressar os meus sentimentos de forma tão clara como tu. bjs lou

Shaz said...

Thank God the Dancer in you is back...next time we'll call 911 should the bastard decide to let go...

Brisky said...

Welcome back! I was thinking you'd choose not to try another go. But that's the way, U know that most of times when I'm down I take my best-of-all Chill Out CDs, and go slow, then increase the rhythm slowly, and the its Friday and the dance floor is the place to be, close your eyes and feel the music being part of U, and every note pushing U around, forget everyone's there, after a couple of minutes, NO ONE can stop U. The night is yours! A KISS full of rhythm 2 U!

Baileys said...

AND WE HAD GREAT FUN!!!

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