Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Giving Wings To Forbidden Thoughts

Giving Wings To Forbidden Thoughts

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In the privacy of my own mind, I set my thoughts free and dare to imagine the things I don’t allow myself the privilege during the day.
Tiny images and clips of forbidden thoughts play from under my subconscious and I can’t help but smile and giggle at the knowledge of what I force myself to suppress daily.
Some are innocent thoughts… like those of hidden desires to throw my boss out the balcony, just before I tie him to his chair and shave off his eyebrows!
Then of course there are those clients that I’d love to make them swallow their cell phones while I stick my pen up their noses right after I write “Spoilt Baby Brat” on their foreheads with a permanent marker.
If only we could simply do what we felt like doing…
I would’ve sat on the lap of that idiot that cat called me when I went to buy bread this morning, blocked his nose and whispered “Go ahead… whistle again!”

If thoughts were public we’d all be in a whole heap of trouble!...

The warning bells usually go off with more vigour when it comes to thoughts of the opposite sex…. That ex-boyfriend, your best friend’s boyfriend, your teacher, your work colleague, your client, perhaps a married person… or even your gay friend.
There are people of the opposite sex that you simply shouldn’t think of in a certain way… a kiss… a caress… a tight squeeze… a wild night and an untamed morning…
These are all highly forbidden when associated with people you’re not allowed to be attracted to do. And normally you’re not…
In fact, during almost all the time you distinguish your individual roles perfectly and manage to keep yourself within boundaries…
But when the night comes…
When time is on your hands and you dare to take the leash off your senses…
Fantasies roam free and you find yourself thinking the unthinkable.

The difference between man and animal is that man holds the power of decision and therefore he withholds against instinct.
While this can be a dagger of two sharp blades, the fact is that to survive within the homo-sapiens jungle, one must learn to refrain from acting on all desires.
And so we teach and programme our minds to function a certain way, emphasizing thoughts that accomplish our goals and eliminating those that hinder our growth.
But when the loneliness comes… when the world is shut away, you begin to hear yourself think and your mind takes you places that you dare not envision.

Set your mind free.

Dream whatever you feel you want to dream, picture, visualise and fantasize about all the things your mother and friends would be shocked to know.
Why not think more, feel more, create more in your mind. After all, nothing prevents you from reaching new heights, creating different ideas… even if they never get played out anywhere further than the back of your mind. Sometimes we discover the most interesting things about ourselves when we think the unthinkable.

Out of fifty thoughts I will but react on one… this goes to say that I know how to distinguish between a thought I should act on and one I should write about…
I began this piece with a thought I wanted to share… but instead I leave you with nothing more than the concept.
For my thoughts and dreams are mine alone to shape and mould as I see fit and replay whenever I want to escape reality or simply think of mischievous things…
So go ahead, make your own movie with janitor, the bank manager or the pizza delivery boy for the only limits are those which you yourself impose on your mind.
And the next time you see someone smiling for no apparent reason… know that they’re only doodling in their private thoughts.

4 comments:

Elvio said...

heres a little thought,
I think it would have a relovent conclusion to todays blog.

Sucker love is heaven sent.
You pucker up, our passion’s spent.
My hearts a tart, your body’s rent.
My body’s broken, yours is spent.

Carve your name into my arm.
Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed.
Cuz there’s nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.

Sucker love, a box I choose.
No other box I choose to use.
Another love I would abuse,
No circumstances could excuse.

In the shape of things to come.
Too much poison come undone.
Cuz there’s nothing else to do,

Sucker love is known to swing.
Prone to cling and waste these things.
Pucker up for heavens sake.
There’s never been so much at stake.

I serve my head up on a plate.
It’s only comfort, calling late.

Like the naked leads the blind.
I know I’m selfish, I’m unkind.
Sucker love I always find,
Someone to bruise and leave behind.

All alone in space and time.
There’s nothing here but what here’s here’s mine.
Something borrowed, something blue.

__________

sometimes we allow our thoughts to play a role in a new relationship,
im my case i allow it to controll me, leading me to unforseen consequences.
Sometimes good, and sometimes bad.
Only those who have the courage to dare get rewarded....
Have Fun...
xxx

Anonymous said...

of course Mankind is made of thoughts and Deeds that come from those! U choose which to do and let free! I loved the concept...
Wanderer

lou (singer) said...

your mind plays you in many ways, dreams and secrets thoughts are a way for you to let out your inner fantasies. Like you say, there´s nothing wrong with fantacising, it´s the source of our spirit, the way we have to let out all our emotions, our wildests behaviors that we keep to ourselfs. It´s one of the excenses of life. (sorry I don´t have so much practice writting in english anymore). Lou

Chronis said...

If your mind isn't free...
You aren't free an therefore you can't believe in nothing and nobody...
Let's be free in thouhgt's :)