Tuesday, January 03, 2006

The Passing of Another Year...


Human beings are born with the necessity to be understood.
It´s what keeps us from solitary isolation.

Loneliness is a self imposed punishment.

I complained to my angel that I could not feel his arms around me when I needed comfort and that I could not hear his words of consolation to my hurts. I asked forgiveness for as a human being, feeling the need of physical support. The kind that I could feel through my body into my soul. The kind only felt with a hug or a squeeze of hands.

He sent me a woman whom I met through the choices of those dear to me. Brought together by uncomfortable circumstances, we somehow found comfort in each other´s understanding of the world.
When the truth is met with courage, a friendship can be found even in the most unlikely of circumstances. Once again, I was reminded that friendships are not based on age, backgrounds or culture... it may not even require affinities, common interests or even time. All a friendship requirees to get a start is the desire to understand another individual and respect for both them and their opinions.
The future may have it that perhaps one day society shall call her my step sister, although to me she´s simply the special friend I met through circumstance. She´s the comfort and understanding my angel sent me in substitute of his physical self.
Inspiring, understanding and with an incredible capacity to live and love, this woman embarked with me on a parallel journey of self discovery and enlightenement.
Together we found stength in the courage to our convictions.
I felt especially blessed to have met and spent time with her and proud of the energy we inspired in each other. Despite whichever differences our lives may define us by, we have the ability to reach out and touch and comprehend the people life introduces us to.

On the passing of the year, I stood a few minutes before midnight with twelve raisins in my hand wondering what to wish for. Every year, it´s a tradition to ask fate for something good in our lives.
I though it unwise to ask for love as it had brought along with it heartache that year.
Considering that I was still healing from it´s side effects, I decided to give it at least another year before investing in that particular blessing.
I considered asking for money, as it would without a doubt facilitate the success of the projects I planned to accomplish. But wisdom has taught me that happiness lives a short marriage with money and I decided that success would be worth more if I entrust my goals to my efforts and my financial obstacles to my capable angels.
It came to me with a smile and I didn´t think twice before taking the bite... what I asked fore this year is for good friends in Lisbon.
He who has a friend in his life already has all he needs to be happy.

Last year was the year of change. It was every person´s opportunity to make a big change in their lives. 2006 is the chinese year of the dog and I believe if will be the year for honesty.
Sincerity with oneself and truthfulness with others.
Being in the year of my chinese astrological sign, i´m hoping to bring some of my hopes and dreams into reality. All it takes is the faith.
Faith in yourself and faith in the angels around you.
Friends are the angels God puts on earth to look after us, comfort us and support us when our own wings lose the strength to fly - make as many as life gives you.

I stand anxious to see what the new year will bring for me an those I care about.
May this year bring with it more love in people´s hearts and the courage to recognise, fight and live by it.

Happy New Year to Everyone!

4 comments:

Fredrik said...

Hey honey,
Hope you had a good time at new years eve.
Was nice to meet you again and was nice to see you back on the island for a short time.

Hope to see you back here soon again else we see each other in lisbon.

Hugs

Lord of Erewhon said...

Olha uma casinha cor-de-rosa! JAJAJA!!! Good to be here again!:)=

Patrícia Chaparrínho said...

Peopla come and go in our lifes once they have given or taken what they have to given or taken to or from us. Real friends... anjels that were ment to guide us, always stay. You are definaly one of them... Lot´s of kisses!

Anonymous said...

Eu diria que os seres humanos nascem com a necessidade de serem aceites pelos seus pares.

A solidão é na minha opinião não uma penalização, mas concordo que seja um sofrimento. E apenas se torna um sofrimento quando não é por vontade própria. A fronteira entre estar só e estar solitário é a fronteira de um dos sofrimentos mais cruéis que podemos sentir.

O calor do toque humano não é substituído por nada neste mundo. Transporta consigo sentimentos que dificilmente se podem explicar porque por mais que digamos, nunca parece ser o suficiente. Quem conhece sabe o que é, quem não conhece só experimentando.

Nas asas do destino encontraremos sempre pessoas no nosso percurso pela vida que nos fazem sentir mais especiais, ou que nos surpreendem com as suas capacidades incríveis. Superam-nos no que gostaríamos de ser, e com isso completam-nos nas nossas falhas. Estas trocas de experiências consolidam amizades. Se são bênçãos ou não, isso provavelmente depende das crenças de cada um. E no entanto é sempre especial.

Decidi não desejar mais nada. Estou livre para aceitar o que a vida me traga. Não baixo os braços, continuo a acreditar que o meu destino sou eu que o faço. Mas não me vou sujeitar a sofrer por antecipação novamente. Se puder passar a vida de braços abertos para o que ela me traga de bom e mau, não será de outra ,maneira. Amigos, realização pessoal, sucesso profissional e académico… são tudo coisas boas. Mas só se formos capazes de sorrir ao atingi-las. Sem isso não seremos capazes de ser felizes.

Sobre o ano que passou, foi de grandes mudanças. Destruíu-se por completo o edifício no qual viviam os meus piores demónios. Com muito trabalho, dedicação e amor, sacrifício até um limite que eu não julgava existir, e o ano teve uma ascensão lenta mas constante. Acabou por terminar em alta. Não com tudo o que eu desejaria, mas com o que a vida me trouxe de bom e de mau, dando origem a um somatório que eu classifico de positivo.

O próximo ano trará o que desejar. Farei o meu melhor para receber e dar resposta aos desafios que me forem colocados. Espero conseguir sorrir nos momentos em que atinja os meus objectivos de forma a saboreá-los, e manter o espírito quando não me for possível conseguir atingi-los.


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